Have been feeling so sad about Charlie not being here. I keep thinking something will happen and it will have all been all a mistake and actually Charlie is still alive and will come back to us. I keep thinking about how ill he was and I hope he did not suffer too much with the sickness. I think he was OK because he slept a lot. It is heartbreaking. I remember how he was before he got old, especially when we were living in Tunbridge Wells. I would take him for a long walk in the afternoons up to the park. He was never much of a running dog, and always preferred to do a lot of smelling! Its always been me and him. I have been so used to caring for him. He was always very definite about what he wanted and what he didn't want! Every time I talk about him or think about him I start crying again. But yesterday evening I was beginning to feel a bit better and to accept what has happened. I know logically that what happened was really the best thing for Charlie but its difficult coming to terms with the loss of him. I will always remember him. He has left a huge hole in our lives. May he be resting in peace - until the next time! Charlie - you were the best.
And now we still have Jasper to love and care for. He's a character and actually has a fan club - all the neighbours think he's great and worry about him on the road. But Jasper is pretty savvy about the road and often sits in the hedge opposite surveying the world. He is the last man standing, since Bibi died, and now Charlie gone.
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